Tempted

It's been awhile my peeps and bloggy friends. I missed you, and I missed the little rush I get every time I have a comment hit my email. I've been busy, of course, that part about me being a Mom and all, added to the fact I have a ba-zillion other things that are always going on or blowing up about the time I say "Well, things should start slowing down for meeeeee......".

To be honest though, that's not the reason I haven't blogged in awhile. In my mind, at least (Where a lot of crazy stuff happens, believe you me), I've come to a crossroads where I'm considering a change in my blogging.

I have so much I'd like to say. Blog posts constantly tumble around in my head, some of them like a dryer load of bricks. I know that what I have to say, so many women will relate to. I can't be the only one who thinks these things or has these issues. (Please tell me that this is so!) If there's something I've learned in the blogging community, it's that as much as we are all different, we are also the same. These words are itching to come out of me and be written down.

But here's the problem. In case you weren't aware, I live in a very small community, with said population very wrapped up in the military community we are also a part of. As much as I'd like to think I am entitled to my own opinions, griefs, concerns and what have you, experience the last few years has shown that I am definitely NOT. Well... let me take that back. I can put things out there, but they are sure to come back and bite someone I care about (see, I can't even put *who* without having to go back and write that more cryptically) in the ass in a career-busting way. What have I also learned the last few years? People suck. They will take anything you say and twist it to their advantage and use it against people I care about.

(Mr. Jerk-Face, if you're reading this, YES... I'm talking about YOU.)


So here's what I'm considering. I'd really like to write about my experiences as a military wife. I'd also like to write more about those touchy subjects having to do with depression, the ups and downs of relationships, the trials of Motherhood. And maybe about the people that piss me off. (I already have a running list). In a nutshell, I'd like to be more HONEST.

With one exception. I'd have to do it anonymously. (I know... hypocritical much?) I can't hide behind the obscurity of a larger population. Things that I say have and will come back to haunt my hubby and kids, which is in and of itself a cautionary tale. I'd like to put things out there that aren't necessarily ponies and rainbows, but without the risk to my family's livelihood.

So what do you think Peeps? Do I blog anonymously and write about what's REALLY going on in this crazy head of mine, or do I call it a wrap on my blogging days? I'm pretty sure it has to be one or the other, since having to censor this blog so heavily makes me feel like it misses the point entirely.

I'd love to hear your input!